A three in One friend "A mother, a sister & a daughter"

Years ago I knew how to manage and live without a long-term friend. Independency was always so important to me and I wasn’t ready to have a friend whom going to take away my freedom in being alone for a while whenever and wherever I want. 

Maybe my experiences with friends weren’t that good. I used to have friends whom thought of me as their one and only property. Seeing me dealing with other people was considered a crime that I have to be punished for. Another category was those so-called friends but in fact they stab you from behind and are jealous of whom you are. Of course I had the honor also to meet the kind of people who use their friends in having their jobs done. There are for sure many and many others so bottom of line I was never lucky in finding a good friend along my life.

But now I can say out loud and with the highest volume of my own voice that I have a friend that is now categorized as “no-longer existing strain of friends”.

You know that kind of a friend they tell about in stories. The one that’s always by your side, knows how to keep a secret, cares for you & can turn into a listening machine when you need to talk. A friend that feels comfortable only when you are okay & considers your problems as her own.

I have to admit that I consider myself lucky to have such an amazing friend.

To me she is a mother, sister and a daughter;

A mother, because as long as she exists in a place, regardless of how much scary it is, I feel safe & when I see her coming, it’s like a daughter who finally find her mom after being lost for days. She cares for me more than for herself. When I’m not okay I can catch worry filling her eyes.

A sister, because I can almost tell her everything about me. She knows exactly how I feel and answers lots of my question. I trust her unconditionally with my secrets because I’m sure she can keep them.

A daughter, because sometimes I feel responsible for her. I try to give her advices as much as I can. When she is stressed, I feel it’s my duty to cheer her up. Whenever I can, I try to be there when she needs me.

Describing my friend needs years and years. She helped me out through my toughest of times, was there for me when I needed her the most. I discovered a whole new me when I knew her.

It’s true that I may disagree with her. Sometimes we get mad from each other though it doesn’t last long. She also doesn’t like some things about my way of thinking xD

But what differs here from other friendships is understanding. We deal with our differences wisely.

And for all that I thank her from the deepest of my heart,

because in the end, “that’s what friends are for”. 

May God keep us together for as long as we shall live.

Dedicated to my Dear friend Mona “,)

P.S. I can almost swear that whoever said “A friend in need is a friend indeed” must’ve known you!!

Thank you since thanks to you !!

 I've never believed in Love!!

Yes it’s the truth... Never believed in it... Always thought of love as weakness and lot’s of suffering... Maybe it’s because I’ve listened to many love stories through out my short period of life and they usually end up sadly & rarely finish with the happily ever after…

I can’t deny I admired many… respected few... Liked some but never did actually love with every single letter of the word…Never felt the way people feel when in love!!

And then it hit me!! 

Yes it literarily hit me... I can’t find a better word to describe what happened!!
It was totally like an accident... when you got hit by a car... you can’t remember how or when you’ve been hit … But you do remember the feeling.

It’s totally the same in my case; I loved a guy whom I’ve never spoken with more than 2 minutes maximum. I don’t know a lot about him… his character, personality, what he likes, what he doesn’t, his favorite food or drink … and many other... All I knew was that I totally fall in love with a considered-partial stranger whom I don’t even know if I have a chance to get to know him or even if he does know me or have a single feeling for me…

You know these issues did annoy me for almost 3 years but then I came to find few conclusions out of every single situation I’ve experienced through the whole story;
First: You needn’t be loved in return ..

The action of Love is always enough to make you happy as long as it doesn’t distract your train of life... As long as it doesn’t cause you much pain or make you over-think 24/7 … as long as you’re totally convinced from the inside out that loving someone is enough to heal your heart and make it purer.
Second: Build your own impression...
Never depend on other’s impression on someone you love in building your own. People differ in judging one another, that’s why you should get to know someone personally to carefully well judge and build a good impression away from other’s influence.

Third: Never expect…

Expecting is what makes people think love is a big trap and doesn’t worth the risk... Though it never been love that’s bad or so, it has always been expectations. Love itself is a gift, but when it comes together with high expectations it turns life up side down.
So love with little hope but never expect & have faith in god's judgment .. and whatever the ending is, I am sure it will just perfectly fit you :)

Well I’ve concluded more for sure but those were the most noticed ones.

And so I decided to write this note … the “thank you since thanks to you” to express my feelings towards that special guy and at the same time {thank him} since {thanks to him} my whole life was changed.

So here I go:
Dear special guy,
1- Thank you since thanks to you I’ve discovered a whole new smile of mine that I’ve never known about before you… And it’s the most beautiful one amongst all my smiles.

2- Thank you since thanks to you I’ve known how it feels to fall in love.

3- Thank you since thanks to you I finally found out the meaning of butterflies in my stomach … and felt it too.

4- Thank you since thanks to you I knew how to have faith in the almost faithless.
5- Thank you since thanks to you I finally got to know my heart and even offered him a job other than just keeping me alive.

6- Thank you since thanks to you I’ve done things I’ve never done before… still didn’t pass my limits … but I've believed impossible is nothing.
7- Thank you since thanks to you I knew how it feels to smile a long lasting smile without a reason.

8- Thank you since thanks to you I love myself when looking at you.

9- Thank you since thanks to you I had a beautiful reason to wake up in the morning.

10- Thank you since thanks to you I knew how beautiful it feels to have someone to pray for.

11- Thank you since thanks to you I knew ultimate happiness.

12- Thank you since thanks to you I discovered my favorite hobby.
13- Thank you since thanks to you I wouldn't have been writing at all.
14- Thank you since thanks to you I was reborn every day when i see you smiling.
15- Thank you since thanks to you I felt the most indescribable feeling ever.

I guess I would use much more papers if I want to complete the list, because there are an uncountable number of thanks yet to be said.

What I want to say is I loved that person without even knowing it. I felt that we were somehow connected. Even without speaking, I always felt like I can understand his silence … maybe I’m wrong but it’s what I did feel.

Can you imagine being someone’s everything when you don’t even know it? 

That guy is my everything and I doubt it, if not sure, that he knows nothing.


But I appreciate the feelings I felt, the smiles i smiled and every moment passed because there are people out there who waited a lifetime for moments like these.


The beauty of this story that i lived almost with only myself will never fade away, 
because "everything changes but beauty remains" . 

I've lost happiness lately ... Has anyone seen it around?!

They always say "Happiness Shared Is Multiplied"....

Well I've never believed in that... Asked Why? I've always replied with a single reply; it's that for sure when you seek for your own happiness, when you buy yourself stuff and travel to places that makes you happy is always better than doing something that will make more than a single person happy... because then it means happiness is divided... it became less than when it's only yours.. Bottom of line I've always thought that "Happiness shared is divided" never multiplied...

But then I created my page on FaceBook for sharing my favorite passion "Quotes"... at first I've done it for gathering a lot of fans and be like famous page... I really cared about the quantity of people liking my page... But then I discovered that was too shallow ... it was a superficial way of thinking.

Through passing days, when I connected with my fans, I found out that a single quote, word or video that I share can affect their lives. One quote of happiness can brighten their day and fill them with enthusiasm and optimism. Another quote of inspiration can help them focus more in their work and dreams. A single photo may cheer them up. I began to feel happy for some fan and sympathize another. I felt like having a whole new family which I respect and love.

At a moment I saw a clearer view of the picture. I found myself happy whenever I feel that I've helped a fan with one word or with a simple "thank you" or even with a "same here" which made him felt that his not alone. I feel happy when I see a word of appreciation or admiration of the page.

You know why being happy alone isn't as beautiful as together?
Because being happy by yourself never lasts. The mobile you've thought will make you happy... Sooner or later you're gonna use to it. The country you dreamt of visiting one day... Will make you happy but only till you go back home.

On the contrary, when you share happiness, be sure it will last. Offering a simple smile to a stranger may change his whole life... may give him hope to keep searching for the job he thought would never find. Telling a girl she is beautiful can make her feel that she is no longer unwanted.

Sharing happiness and kindness makes you feel that they are materialized infront of you and never lost... because if you looked deeply in the eyes of those you shared happiness with... You will find them sparkling with what you've shared .. with happiness J

I guess I finally found what I've been looking for ..

P.S. {HE} is a human tOo

Going through quotes, notes or books, you always notice a common question which is how to treat a woman?!

Most of the time people are discussing ways of treating women and that they should be handled with care and kindness …. Etc.

They always justify the need of a woman to be treated with caution by the fact that a female is fragile. She is weak, passionate and mainly controlled by her feelings.

Well I always thought to myself "what about the human being called (MALE)?! "

I believe he too deserves to be treated with kindness even more than a woman does.

Men; they go through a lot during a day. Most of them work hard to support a sister, a mother, a wife or a whole family. They suffer a lot and carry huge burdens. Some even get humiliated to earn money and afford food.

I know many Females will argue that men do have fun and go out enjoying their times, that we women care about everything at home and I totally agree with them.

Some men neither work nor participate in cleaning the home or taking care of their children.

But here I’m talking about those who do work and even help their family at home.

Both males and females have moments of weakness. However women can express their sadness by crying or even shouting. A man on the other hand will try to hold his sadness and problems deep inside, he won’t unleash them. He is required to always be firm and to never appear weak.

That’s why I’ve always believed a male is in need for a special treatment too. He thirsts for kindness and care that are best offered by a woman: a sister, a mother, a granny or a wife.

I believe FeMale isn’t a haphazard word. To me it means [Fe2+] Male i.e. the iron of a man. A female is the source of strength and support. As iron improves the immune system, so does the woman with her caring and kindness, supplies man with the ability to keep going and keep up with his everyday duties.

I can’t deny women do need to be treated well but so do men. Listening carefully to a male’s problem can make him comfortable. Offering a simple thank you as a way of appreciating his efforts, encourage a man to do more and more for you. They even sometimes need to be told that everything is going to be fine, because though looking holding it together pretty well, a man could be falling apart deep within.

It’s like dealing with a child considering himself an adult. 

Though you treat him like a grown up, you always know that every now and then he is in need to a kind word and a gentle pat on the back.

In the End, a man will always be a woman’s protection and shelter. However a female holds the steering wheel most often, so try to acquire the driving license..

Consider him a human too.. And start treating him on that basis.

When a dream turns into a night mare O_o

Since birth, the only sentence told to a girl is " 3o2bal ma nshofek 3aroosa". These four words precipitate in a girl’s subconscious while growing up, and through every phase of her life. She spent not less than ¾ of her time dreaming of the perfect proposal and the amazing wedding .. and most important “ fostan el-fara7 “ . 

As years pass, she meets dozens of guys … at school, at work, in the streets … almost everywhere .. and that dream of hers is always deep in her heart & never leaves. She thinks of every guy she meets, and wonders if he would be that tool she would use to make her dream come true .. or precisely the dream of the whole family.

Eventually and most probably, she falls in Love with that guy she met by coincidence … the man who makes her heart beat faster.. the one that can change her mood with a single smile .. he may not be as she imagined … might not be “ fata a7lam.ha “ …
but “ when love knocks, our hearts don’t take permission to open “

Only then she starts to think of her dreams as tiny and unnecessary. Her thoughts become different and hesitated. But what’s important is that she found herself willing to give up on her dreams just to live with that person. 

But most likely problems occur. Either he is not capable of engagement or marriage … or there is a huge difference in age …. Might also be that he feels like his capabilities aren’t enough to offer her the same social level she needs … and many others.

That’s when every thing turns upside down. A door bell or a phone call from a friend of your parents and BAM …. Your mother tells you another famous sentence " Galek 3arees "   0_o … 

The supposed action of yours … or the one people expect you to do .. is jumping out of joy and screaming out loud * t2reban mn kotr ma beye7sal fel aflam el-nas sada2t :S:S * … but actually that very moment .. is when your dream turns into a night mare. You suddenly discover that the dream you’ve always thought of .. the proposal, the wedding wl fostan :D …. Means nothing without that special person. You find out that your dream could possibly turn into a night mare in a fraction of a second.

So a3adt m3 nafsy w fakart fe the reasons why on earth a dream highly desired could turn into a night mare that’s better avoided. !!!!!! … Well after long time thinking, I discovered that the problem was that dreams were wrongly planned :S …. They were all about the scene without the human being himself . The girl dreams of the wedding with every ribbon wrapped around a chair .. the proposal with every word being said … and the gown with every single piece of fabric. She thought of every small tiny detail … and forgot one thing … “ el-3arees “!! .. 

We were raised to think that we should get married … FULLSTOP. 

But we forgot what marriage is really about ? … Marriage is about a home with walls of love and a base of friendship. It’s about acceptance and care. Marriage is a long-life trip travelled by two people together side by side. It’s not a "must-reach" purpose …. It’s a "wish-to-live" Life. 

My Advice; Don’t RUSH.

Don’t think about what people say.. Don’t accept the first one proposed only because you feel like you should get married. You should wait for the one who will love you, respect you and care for you. You don’t have to turn the dream of the people around you, not that of yours, into reality. Wait for the person God created to be your other half .. don’t run after guys out of fear en el-2atr yefotek aw en el-3rsan ye5laso. God made you valuable … Never turn cheap.

Paint your own Dream with a brush of your own ♥ ... and make sure it won't ever turn out to be ... A Nightmare ;)

In the End .. 

Remember en kollo naseeb :)

Unspoken Words

.... Why is it that our everyday's conversations are extremely simple & easy ... That words simply flow out of our mouths like a river with no dams ... But when it comes to the only person we love ... We really care about ... Or even like ... We find it impossible to admit those feelings ... We figure out words disobey us .. As if our remote control is programmed to press mute whenever we need higher volume to scream out loud .. We CARE ... We LIKE ... We LOVE :)(:

One Day (",)

... You know sometimes bad things happen to us ... Like moving to a new town ... Going to a new school ... Getting in a college you never liked ... Meeting people who disappoint you .. But remember all these things that now you just hate ... One day you will be grateful for ... That even you will want to thank every minute spent to get you closer to that day ... When everything just fits ... When you meet the perfect person .... That person who makes you a whole ... Who just happens to be your soul mate .. ==> So just back off and let your fate do his job ;))